Saturday, August 17, 2013

I Have Writer's Block. That's Probably Pretty Obvious.

Actually I have an everything block.

The problem with having an everything block is that occasionally I'l get REALLY REALLY EXCITED to do something, like do a major closet purge or clean my bathroom or cook something amazing or get really dressed up or write a whole goddamn novel in a night. But the excitement is mostly in my head, so nothing ever really gets done.

You have no idea just how hard it is for me to write this blog post. Maybe you do. I don't know.

I know a HUGE part of it is depression/anxiety. I recently switched medication after having a weird episode of passing out/whacking my head on the floor of Whole Foods, but I don't feel like this new stuff is working half as well as the other stuff did. I'm not even sure the old stuff was what caused the episode, but my Dr. doesn't want to take any risks.

Now I'm just irritable all the time, except when I'm not irritable, which is when I just feel flat and kind of weird about things (before you point me to Hyperbole and a Half, I've read it, and it's beautiful and completely describes what I'm going through).

Anyway, this is turning out to be way more depressing than I'd actually thought it was going to be. I was going for some kind of self-deprecating humor mixed with some commentary on how much of a bum I feel like because I keep going to Starbucks and sitting outside of them to get free wi-fi since I still haven't had the energy to get real internet in my not-so-new-anymore apartment yet.

I should probably pick an actual topic for this blog too, since I haven't really settled on one. Ever. Except when I tried to be a fashion blogger, which made me feel a bit like an impostor since most of the time I just go for what's on the floor and looks clean.

So at the risk of getting some bizarre answers (which is kind of what I'm going for, actually), what do you want to see in a blog? Any particular topics you like reading about? Please give me your weirdest and best suggestions, I could really use them.

1 comment:

  1. Hmm...I think I have writer's block because I can't think of anything lol. Why not just blog about whatever comes to mind? Crazy as it sounds, that may help your writer's block. Just writing things out, no matter how random they are, helps me a lot.

    I feel your pain. Hang in there.